Scared that this is the year that I declare bankruptcy. The first two days of 2010 I’ve been scared out of my mind about spending any money whatsoever. For this reason… I have health insurance payments to make… LARGE health insurance payments to make. I got lab tests done last week instead of this week so I wouldn’t have to pay an additional $500. I take home almost $3300/month and I’m scared that I don’t have enough. It seems like so much money for a single person… My work mates who have no health problems, student loans, rent, etc… complain about blowing “literally half their checks on alcohol”…(which, for one person… I do not doubt in the least).
I really need a financial person to tell me where everything is going.
Anyway, I’m in “Loser-ville” tonight… Stayed in my PJs all day long… I didn’t have anywhere to go. I only have one friend that I hang out with (which I did last night)… It’s so hard to meet people here. I thought by now I would have a decent group of people to do things with. I am thankful for my one friend because we do have a blast when we get together… but, that’s it. No group of people to call to do stuff with. No one from work to hang out with..everybody is 1o years younger and cares about stuff that I really don’t… and,when I tried to ask someone from work to hang out… everyone thought it was because I had a crush…
I’m going to a new church tomorrow.
We’ll see what happens.