Got back a little bit ago from Methodist. I feel like we got the short end of the straw (or however that saying goes…). We have some interesting patients…but we don’t go to lunch saying “Hey… we saw a stage 3 pressure sore!” or “Hey, I saw a leg amputated today in surgery!” Our team goes to the cafeteria and says “Yea, we cleaned a lot of poop today.” And, basically that’s what it’s come down to these first couple of weeks…changing beds and cleaning BMs. Which is fine… we need to learn to be with patients… but it does seem like we do a lot of waiting around. Our instructor asked us today if any of us were bored. We all raised our hands. We don’t go back until 10/16… she said she would have some more stuff for us to do.
Yes, I am a woman and I had a crush on J. I would have been crazy to NOT have developed a crush on J. I don’t know where “Someone” came into this story..but #!) didn’t find out he had a girlfriend until late & #2) he is Jewish and does not date non-Jewish women. So, I am not Jewish and have no intentions of converting (I hope that doesn’t come across as snobbish or elitest or whatever the correct word is… I love knowing about Judaism & their traditions… w/o Judaism there would not be Christianity…).
I’m at that point now where I have begun to see (yes.. I’m a slow learner) that I’m always the one asking him for coffee… I’m always the one asking how he is…etc… I’m not anymore. My life doesn’t seem all that interesting to him (plus he does have all those things happening to him that “Someone” spelled out).
The above being said… I asked him to the wedding because I truly thought it would be cool to invite him & hang out with him for an evening. What I meant by saying that I *knew* that he would say no… was that I ALWAYS assume guys will say no to something I ask b/c honestly rarely have guys ever said “yes” to me.
Guys have never been attracted to me physically (another reason J. would never fall for me… his former girlfriend is beautiful & skinny).
All my friends are my age or younger. I don’t know any older couples w/ a son in their 30s. All the men in my nursing class are in their early or middle 20s. Ten years younger than me. There was one I thought of asking…but, since I’ve only been in school for a month…. thought it was too soon to be asking for an escort to a wedding.
Re: wedding coordinator. The bride goes to a different church than I do. Most of the people are either from her church or from her childhood home. The groom is from Quebec… so, I don’t ANYONE on his side. I will know her former roommates and that’s about it…
Blah, Blah, blah… I need to eat something and then start studying before “House” comes on tonight.