Happy Find..

Update on the lost ring… I found it when I wasn’t looking for it. Very happy about it.

That’s it.. I’m off to work again. Yea! Money is good. (*** please note that the author doesn’t think that money is the only reason she goes to work.. although some nights that is all that is motivating her…. not ALL nights… just some-like last night).

Toots for now.

Canceled.

I was supposed to work tonight, but they called at 5.15p to tell me that I was canceled. This is the first time I’ve ever been canceled. I worked last night and there was only 13 patients on the floor and I know that they discharged a few today …  I’m betting that they only have 3 nurses on the floor and 1 charge nurse. It was my turn to get canceled so that’s only fair. I’m only upset that I’ll have to use my PTO time to make up for the 12 hours I got called off. We do get a lot of PTO time so it will build back up pretty quickly. But, what sucks is that the PTO time is paid on my straight hourly rate. I’m going to miss the night shift differential and also the weekend bonus pay (which, adds up to about $35/hour). I am working tomorrow night. I won’t get canceled two nights in a row.

Tonight I’m having an exciting Friday night alone. Watching “Elf” (which, I watch WHENEVER it’s on… I LOVE that movie!) & writing out my Christmas cards.

I talked to Kevin tonight (yes, the divorced dad of 3 has a name). On. The. Phone. Novel concept… right? Anyway, he has a date tomorrow night. I’m soo not even on his radar screen as a potential girlfriend. Oh well, my life story.

My Thanksgiving was good even with the work part thrown in. I spent the day at the parents’ house of my friend Heather from church. It was a way traditional Thanksgiving dinner and I loved it. The food was amazing. The house was warm and cozy. The people were all friendly. Work was good also… since we had so few patients.. everybody was a little more laid back than usual.

I’m supposed to drive to Ann Arbor, MI on Wednesday to see The Swell Season that night. I’m still not sure if I’m going to do it. I still need to get a hotel room and then the cost of gas. I might just eat the cost of the ticket ($45). I really want to see them… but, need to be more responsible with my limited income now. I’m thankful for my student loans…but now I getting anal about paying them back fast.

***What I really want to say on this Friday night… but I know you’ll all (well, the 9 of you) will get mad…  I’m 38 now… I’m sure I only have until 50 and then my heart/health will start declining. No one will want someone for such a short period of time. I just need to give up hoping for a husband. It must be easier that way.***

Anyway, that’s it from my little piece of Indianapolis. Have a nice night.

Update at 9.09pm: I got a call about an hour ago… They want me to come in from 11-0730. Which is better than staying home all night. I get the weekend & shift differential pay for 8 hours. Yea.

 

Tuesday night

I can’t believe that Thanksgiving is almost upon us. Tomorow I’m going to get out all the Christmas decorations and hopefully after that I won’t be lazy and I’ll actually put up the Christmas tree, etc.

I’ve been off from work since Friday night. I work again this Thur, Fri, & Sat. Yep… the night of Thanksgiving I’m working (if we are keeping track… I’m also working Christmas Eve & New Year’s Eve). I’m ok with working all the these holidays…. at least I have Christmas Day actually off and then I can drive home and be there in time for Christmas dinner. And, well.. NYE… don’t really care about. I’ve never had a boyfriend to kiss… and I think the high point (err… I mean LOW point ) of NYE’s parties was when I was in Chicago a few years ago and was in a room of 30 gay male couples kissing at Midnight (seriously… a really long story how that came about). The upside… I’ll be getting lots and lots and lots of extra holiday pay.

Still no answer from the guy. It’s like he has dropped off the face of the earth when it comes to me. Bummer. But, again…nothing new there.

Nothing else really exciting to report. Two other things that I’m kinda bummed about: 1) I’ve misplaced (I’m not ready to say it’s gone…but it might be gone) my oldest ring. It was the first piece of somewhat expensive jewelry that I bought myself. I actually had a dream about this ring before I bought it. It’s a little white gold ring with a “X” made out of diamonds on it. I have NO IDEA where I placed it. It’s been missing for almost 10 days now. 2) My 6-CD player in my Mazda is on the fritz. I’m going to have to call tomorrow….  It’s saying “read error” & “check CD”…but then it won’t let me pop out the CD….  UGH. I can’t live without my CD player…

Ok.. that’s it in my little life for now.

I hope you all have a Happy Thanksgiving. Even though I’ll be working, I’m very thankful that I am not a patient in the hospital over the holidays. I’m thankful that I can go home after my shift.

Toots for now.

ps.. for Scott… I’m curious… did you ever give that ring to another nice Jewish girl???

Disappointment around every bend.

So, I never counted out the divorced guy with three kids. We were still talking…Mind you, nothing serious.. funny texts & Facebook comments..

Well, I somehow got more bold than usual last night. I texted him & said “Seriously, it would be nice to see you again.” That was it.

The response I got back was…

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nothing.

 

Rainy Indianapolis Morning

Dear Peyton Manning and fellow Colts…

Thank you for almost giving me a heart attack last night. It was a great, great game. That 4th & 2 gamble… so, so, so glad it didn’t pay off for the Pats…  You were on top when it came to that call and then end of the game. Although, for future games.. please, please, please.. no interceptions & a lot fewer dropped passes…

Ok… now that I got that off my chest… First, I was cleared this morning to go back to work tomorrow night. Thank goodness… I don’t know what I would do with myself if I had to stay home any longer. I was still feeling crappy on Friday when my parents arrived for the weekend. During the afternoon, my parents forced me to get dressed and take a ride around town with them. I was actually feeling better enough to go to Costco that afternoon. Well, Friday night sucked rocks big time. I threw up 2x and basically didn’t fall asleep until 5am Saturday morning. I slept until 9am Saturday & then we took another drive around town and stopped somewhere for lunch…. my dad also convinced me to take a swig of Pepto-Bismol (UGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YUCK). I’m not sure if that helped or not…but I started to feel better for good on Saturday afternoon. Saturday night I slept a good 6 hours straight… which was amazing.

My weekend was good. Saturday night were the marching band finals here at Lucas Oil. The bad part of the weekend was at 4pm on Saturday afternoon I went to find the tickets for Saturday night. They WERE on my coffee table in an envelope. Well, my mom was cleaning my table and threw the tickets away. They were GONE. GONE. GONE. I couldn’t believe it. Over $100 GONE. Anyway, long story short… we went to the stadium and bought 3 tickets for $60 off a band parent whose kid didn’t make the finals. I think from now on I’ll just do that… there are always people selling their tickets the night of the Finals for various reasons… as long as we are high up it really doesn’t matter what yard line we sit at. The competition was great. My old HS placed 3rd. It was a good show. The funny thing.. I basically commented on Facebook the whole night long. I commented on the bands, etc… I gave live updates regarding scores, etc… I had people (alumni) from all across the country reading my posts… it was hilarious..and cool that the Internet & my Blackberry allowed me to give people a sense of what was happening without paying to see the performances via webcast. But, by the end of the evening… I was sure that I was going to have Blackberry Thumb again.

Nothing else too exciting to report. My first day back is tomorrow night… I might venture out today just to do something. I do need to make a stop at the post office for stamps.

Toots for now.

Still not-well.

Ugh. I’ve been cooped up here in my place all week long. I went home early from my shift on Monday (by early.. I mean: 12.30am Tuesday morning). I had “flu-like” symptoms. I had a fever on Monday night, but since then I’ve had nothing except weird stomach issues… Haven’t thrown up or have had diarrhea, but just feel tired and bad. Honestly, in my 38 years I have NEVER had the flu…EVER. Maybe I have the flu? Who knows… Employee health said that the earliest that I can go back to work is next Monday on the 16th..as long as I don’t have a fever… which, I haven’t … so, I guess that’s a good thing.

I did cover my bases and go get blood tests run for CMV… which is a virus that is basically harmless for normal people..but for immunosuppressed people like me it can be hell…  Turns out that was negative. That’s good news. Maybe it’s just a stomach bug that needs to run its course.

I’m just bored and tired of being tired.

The only good thing about this “forced vacation” is that I’m half way through “Breaking Dawn”…

Weekend wrap up…

It was good. I worked all of it.

The thrills of being a nurse.

With weekend pay!

Other randomness…..

1) I really think the Bears got the short end of the stick with Jay Cutler. Or, maybe the Bears were never really that good to begin with this season.

2). Work tonight, tomorrow, & Thursday. Already looking forward to the w/e… It’s Grand Nationals time for Bands of America. Basically, 100 or some marching bands from across the country meet in Indianapolis for 4 days of competition. My parents are coming down and we are going to the Finals on Saturday evening at Lucas Oil stadium. Watching marching bands never gets old for me. My former HS has won the most Grand National Titles with a total of seven.. then next highest total is three. During my four years, we won 3 out of the 4. It’s still to this day one of the best memories/times of my life. I recommend every student who is at all musically inclined to get involved with marching band. It’s cool that I can go to this competition as an alumnus and say I went to Marian Catholic… people usually either say “hey, that’s great” or “we hated you guys…” (which, is also a huge complement in the marching world).

3). Got my ticket for The Swell Season in Ann Arbor. It will be fun to take a road trip to a city I’ve never been to.

4). Ok… was totally, utterly disappointed in the new version of “V”… I was interested for like 20 minutes and then turned off the TV. The original was cheesy..but also, it had some element of suspense…  the actors on this version were too polished….  like they woke up that morning already knowing that they were going to be visited by huge alien ships & they just acted surprised for the cameras.

That’s about it for today. Sorry about my post from the other day. If you’ve been reading long enough (the nine of you)… you know how it goes…

Enjoy your Monday. It’s another nice day in Indy today (although I’ll be sleeping most of it away since I have to work tonight).

 

Friday, 6.24am

I got up this morning about 5 because I was hungry and couldn’t sleep. A Trader Joes granola bar fixed the hunger.. the sleep issue not so much. A rerun of “Angel” is on in the other room and I’m sitting here just surfing the web without a real destination. I paid a credit card bill online, read the morning newspapers (Philly, NYT, Chicago Suntimes, & Indy Star), started looking for some Christmas presents online and priced a new flat screen TV (my Christmas present… 42 inches of pure color glory… my parents are paying half).

I’m working tonight and tomorrow night so my weekend is basically shot.. which sucks because the weather here in Indianapolis is supposed to be really nice. It’s hard for me to do anything during the nights that I work because I’m afraid I’ll be brain dead by the time work rolls around & honestly I really don’t have anywhere to go during the day except to run errands…  and, I really don’t have any errands to run… so, I would rather stay in and sleep. As much as I want to get to day shift (and, I really, really, really do!!)… Night shift is basically an additional $600/month (or more, depending if I get an extra shift & thus, overtime) which I can really use now that my student loans are coming due this month.

On Monday night my new friend Amanda & I went to see The Swell Season at Clowes Memorial Hall on the campus of Butler University. As always, the duo was amazing. I could sit and listen to them play all night long. Somehow by the luck of the draw I got seats in the 2nd row of the auditorium. They were the best seats I’ve ever gotten for a concert. Literally, Glen & Mar were 20 feet from me. I tried to take pictures, but unfortunately, even the ones I mistakenly took with the flash still on didn’t turn out at all. Bummer.

I’m looking forward to seeing them again in December. I’m becoming a little groupie (spelling?) and bought tickets to their show in Ann Arbor, MI on December 2. It’s a four hour drive from here.. Definitely worth it to seem them again.

Nothing else too exciting to report. Every so often I’ll read old posts from my blog… I’ll go back to Nov ‘08, Nov ‘07, ‘06, etc… back all the way to ‘04 when I first started this blog. Literally nothing has changed in my life. Yea, I moved cities, I changed careers. I’m still single. Jeremy (aka… “the quirky boy”) got married a few weeks ago. Something I knew was going to happen for him and he kept denying it at the time. How did I know back then that he was going to get married…because everyone can get married except for me. And, as much as he denied it.. I knew deep down he wanted to also. And, he did. I’m still single. I’m still lonely. I’m still paying shit loads of money for Eharmony for the *chance* that maybe, just maybe this time will be different (which, turns out… Midwest men are exactly the same as East Coast guys).

Anyway, I don’t know if I have the strength to be alone for my whole life. A family at the hospital had the nerve to say to me “Well, it’s probably for the best because God is saving you from the hardship that marriage brings.”

Well, that’s it for this morning. Enjoy your weekend folks.