10.19pm

The White Sox are losing.

I’m studying for a pharm exam.

Totally watched all of “Idols Give Back” tonight.  I actually laughed a few times out loud.

Haven’t heard back from the Lankenau Interview.  I have another job interview tomorrow in the city…but it’s not something I really want.  It’s an internship…but not at a hospital.

I feel so stupid at times.  How  can I want to see him and never want to see him again at the same time?  Why am I wasting tears and minutes of my life rehashing my friendship w/ him.  I can probably guarantee you that he’s not doing the same thing.

Ok… back to pharm.  I think I’m over my allotted time of 30 minutes today.

Maybe it’s true.  People are better off as islands and to never let anyone in.

4am

trying to cram nutrition info in my head.

ugh.

test in 4 hours.

yes, 30 minutes/day is a long time to get upset about someone…but this is me. i’m totally a relational person and i can’t believe this relationship is gone. finished. over. i’m sad that i can’t trust his word anymore. last night (slow night at the hospital) i kept thinking about things he said… and wondering if there was any truth at all in his words. blah, blah, blah.

ok..onto nutrition stuff.