Tired.

Just got home from my last day of clinical rotations. I’m officially finished with clinicals for my first year of nursing school. Don’t have to wear that crazy uniform for 16 weeks. Don’t have to wear that ugly plastic name tag again until next September. It was a fun last day. We took a little longer for dinner than usual (Note: even though I’m eating TONS at Qdobe.. I still like Chipolte better–and I’m too tired to even care if I have spelled those right).  We had a couple of case study presentations tonight.  One group did a “Jeopardy” theme & the other group did a skit which was hilarious (my partner and I did a crossword puzzle for the group to complete last night).

I rec’d the grade back on my 27 page nutrition project.  93%.  It doesn’t even seem fair.  It’s a fine grade…but whatever.  Her final exam is tomorrow and I have hardly studied for it. I just don’t care. I can’t figure out my attitude about her class. I’ve never felt this way about a class before. I just absolutely loathe it with every fiber of my body. Is that graphic enough? The sad thing is: I think she is a really cool woman and I think she would be cool to go get a beer with & talk about whatever… but as a teacher….  as a class…  I’ve never had so much contempt and dissatisfaction for a class ever. As an undergrad I was too young to know better…in grad school…  I was too scared about not passing to raise an eyebrow…  but here… I’m passing… I’m doing well in the class… I don’t actually care one iota if I pass her last exam tomorrow or not. It’s only worth 10%…  I’ve passed everything else… so, I can fail and it won’t make a difference.

My checking account is still waiting for my government stimulus check. When it arrives I will be stimulating the account of Aer Lingus (is that how it is spelled?).  Yes, boys & girls… yours truly is going to Dublin, Ireland in August.  Can’t friggin’ wait.

Ok.. that’s it… I actually have TWO exams tomorrow back-to-back… I am going to review my anatomy…because I actually care about this grade.

Ta-ta for now.

Thursday Night Update

Things that happened this week:

1. 90% on Anatomy Test

2. 92% on Pharmacology Test

3. Membership purchased for National Constitution Center

4. Looked around baseball exhibit at the NCC

5. Reason for purchase of membership: just visiting vs a year membership…about a $10 difference.

6. Empty Diet Coke cans around house: 6

7. How many Diet Coke cans I have thrown away: 0

8. Number of ACTUAL CLASS DAYS LEFT: 7

9. Number of days until I leave for Chicago: 17

10. V.v.v happy that my mindless TV is back in session: Ugly Betty, Grey’s, Lost

11. Tonight eating dinner at a friend’s house.  I think I need to leave in a few minutes.  Gosh, I really hope it’s still at 7pm…  I haven’t checked my diary all week.

That’s about it.  Oh, and I’m tired…but there’s nothing new about that one.

Finished.

27 pages later @ 8.53am Monday morning.

All I have left is the cover page.

Yippy.

Another thing off my list.

update.

it’s 11.37pm. i have 14 pages finished. i’m going to bed.

i’m still not finished.

i know.. i know.. i know… i said i would stay up until i finished.

the alarm is going off at 5am (ok.. maybe 5.15am).

I’m being good.

I have been at my desk since 2.30 this afternoon. It’s almost 7pm now. I have 11 pages finished of my nutrition project. It will be finished tonight. I’m stopping for one hour at 8pm to watch “Monk”…

Today was the first day I thought about J. all weekend. Why do guys not tell the truth? Why do they say “sure that sounds good” or “don’t be paranoid” but all along they never ever had any intention of doing the thing you asked?

Friends should want to hang out with each other..right? Why wasn’t I good enough to be his friend? Was he ashamed to be seen with me off campus? Why wouldn’t he have a beer with me? Was it because I’m not Jewish? Why was I just the coffee girl?

Damn. I’m crying again.

One of the movies I watched yesterday during my procrastination phase was “10 Things I Hate About You.” There is a line I’m stealing.. it goes something like this: “I hate the fact that I don’t hate him at all… not even a little bit.” When I know I probably should.

Ok. that’s it.

Utter Boredom…

It’s Saturday night.  I’ve spent most of the day NOT studying.  I have wasted tons of time on the Internet, sleeping, eating, watching movies, etc.

I still have two more pages to outline for anatomy.  I should have had this finished at about 3.30 today.  I really know how to waste time when I want to… don’t I?

I’ve spent time looking at the hospitals that I want to work at after I graduate.  My top choices (in NO order whatsoever): And, please….  just because most of these hospitals are out of state… I still haven’t really decided what I’ll be doing.. I’m just looking.

Ok.. my choices..

Methodist Hospital.. Indianapolis, IN

Lankenau Hospital.. Wynewood, PA

Hershey Medical Center.. Hershey, PA

Ohio State University Medical Center..Columbus, OH

Peyton Manning Children’s Hospital.. Indianapolis, IN

CHOP.. Philadelphia, PA

Rush University Medical Center.. Chicago, IL

University of Chicago Medical Center..Chicago, IL

Loyola University Medical Center.. Maywood, IL

Barnes-Jewish Hospital.. St Louis, MO

Ok.. so that’s my list… we’ll see what happens next year.

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Something that people might not know about me… I’m really into cars.  I love cars.  I love auto racing.  For a woman I have an unnatural love for the automobile.  Anyway, I just was looking at the BMW 1 series… LOVE IT.  A little too expensive right now for me…. but maybe in a few years… It’s small and v.v. cute..  and looks v.v. fast.

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Ok… back to studying.  Oh.. and watching Harry Potter #3 on ABC.

Ta-ta for now.

I really want a beer.  Unfortunately, none of my friends drink.  How sad is that?  If you are my friend and would fancy a beer one night… please call me.

Being Responsible…

I will stay in and study instead of going to play in the 79 degree weather.

I really, really, really want to be irresponsible though.

I think the countdown should begin today.  Only 21 more days to worry about school for this year.

TWENTY ONE.

I think I can, I think I can, I think I can, I think I can…

It’s Always Sunny in Philadelphia.

That’s the name of that TV show.. on Showtime..right????  I’ve never seen it..but I hear it’s funny.  Today is a beautiful day.  I walked the extra couple of miles to 30th Street Station just to be outside.  I ran into an old friend on Chestnut Street which was totally, utterly random.  I glad I did because he’s moving to NYC in a few months.

Test went well.  I had a few stupid errors…but all in all.. not all that bad.

Ok.. I’m not happy to admit it..but I succumbed.  I subscribed to People Magazine and got my first issue today.  I have such a short attention span with anything that doesn’t have to do with school.. I needed a short attention span type of reading material.  I know this is a faulty argument because I could have just as easily subscribed to the WSJ..but I didn’t.  I really want to know about Ashlee Simpson and whether she’s pregnant or not.  It’s national news.  Much more important than the stock market or the price of gas.

Also… go White Sox (the author typed in a sarcastic tone).  You blew one last night… didn’t you????  Bottom of the 9th.  Go figure.

Studying & Stressed.

Studying for my first OB test tomorrow… it’s only worth 35% of my grade.  I hear the test itself is like 50 pages… w/ paragraphs for the questions.  I’m sooooo not looking forward to it.  I would have had much more fun in Baltimore tonight.  The White Sox were in town for a quick two game stop.  They were winning last time I checked and that was the top of the 9th (by the way, first baseball game for me will be a Girls Night Out… Phillies/Padres April 30th).

I’m really tired of trying to memorize all this stuff.  Really, really tired.

Test is tomorrow at 9am.

Bye for now.

Employed.

Lankenau just called. I accepted. Another thing I can cross off my list.

Thankfully.